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White

February 25, 2015
By MarsBars SILVER, Port Aransas, Texas
MarsBars SILVER, Port Aransas, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Life&#039;s a bitch, then you die.&quot;<br /> -Just Peck



I feel as if,
The walls are closing in,
Silently creeping forward,
Trying to crush me.

I feel my heart beat,
Slow fast slow fast,
I’m panicking,
And I can’t stop it.

The ceiling begins to crumble,
Plaster raining down,
It feels like snow,
I can’t breathe.

The world is crashing,
Its all my fault,
I’m no longer good,
I’m evil.

It feels like chalk,
Coating my throat,
I’m suffocating,
In my own repercussions.

I caused this,
I can’t stop it,
I’m going to die,
Here in this very room.

White walls,
I notice them slowly,
I register their texture,
They’re soft.

I try to move my arms,
My surroundings,
Swimming into focus,
I’m wrapped up tight.

White jacket,
White walls,
I know where I am,
An insane asylum.

I’m irrational,
This was a hallucination,
The only place I’ll being dying,
Is in my own godforsaken mind.

I’m drowning in my sorrows,
In my guilt,
In my mistakes--

It's all my fault.
 


The author's comments:

About a girl's panic attack that comes from her mental disorder.


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