i was young, i was stupid, i was reckless. i did things I'm not proud of, i said things that came back to haunt me. i made new friends, i lost old ones, my heart was broken then re-plastered again and again. if you look closely at my heart, you will see the holes, the cracks, the places where it was re-pared by someone who would be my friend and fix my heart, then leave me and re-brake it. my heart can't take it any more. they all found me and saved me, but then they left me and let me suffer. they saved me for a while, but the pain always gets greater after my heart is broken and fixed and broken again. i should have done myself a favor, i shouldn't have given in to their kind faces and candy coated words, i should have stayed lost.