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A Normal, Human Experience

May 5, 2023
By Merology16, Orem, Utah
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I looked him in the eyes. I got into a sprawling position. His face turned to concrete, his legs were as frozen as his expression. I let out a large growl. He finally began to sprint away from me. After he turned the corner, my eyes narrowed forward as I began to continue down the dark hall. The footsteps ahead of me started to become softer.

 “His effort is impressive, but hiding will do him no good.”

I increased my pace in order to still follow the sound of his loud shoes tapping the tile floor. As soon as I did, he sped up again. He can’t outrun me, but I need him to keep trying. I had started stalling behind him enough so he could hear me, but not see me. Sure, he may think I am as slow as him, but I let him stay ahead of me for quite a while. Everytime he turned a corner, I quickly pursued the next corner and stalked him running down the hall. My goal was to intimidate him enough to become hysterical. If he thinks I could be a larger threat, he could make a desperate panic move, and pull the files from the laptop before I get to him. I have to hope he will be dumb enough to open the computer and make that attempt.

He was getting desperate. He began to crash into everything in his way. His breathing was getting louder and louder. We were getting close to the room I believed the computer was held.

“Be brave, take the ship down with you captain!”

I heard another crashing noise and a small yelp.

“He can’t get that far.”

I wished he would put himself out of his misery, all he needs is to open the laptop. I juggled the idea earlier of intimidating him into opening the computer myself. But, if I confirmed that the files were truly what I was after, he would rather take a slow death then hand them over.

I appeared from the corner I was stalling from and made as many threatening noises as possible as I revealed myself. This was the first time since our chase began that I saw his face. He was sweating profusely and his arm was cut. It looked like he had run into a glass divider. An ounce of me thought I could help him. I quickly ruled out the idea.

“I doubt kindness from his deadly pursuer would encourage assistance, ineffective.”

Grace gets you nowhere. I never feel able to remember that.

He picked himself up as fast as his injury would let him, and ran away again. I continued to scare him into running away. As he did, he started yelling for help. Unfortunately, I don’t think there was anyone left to help him.

After  we crashed through the next few corridors we began to approach the hall with the laptop’s room. I listened to his steps, and slowed down. I want to give him hope he’s far enough from to have time and save the files from me. I heard a door open, close, and lock fast. I got out of sight and into a sprawling position. Pulling the files off the laptop would take seconds. As soon as I heard the computer chime, confirming a login, I would have to sprint to the door and stop him from doing any damages as fast as I could. My ears twitched. My legs tightened. I was ready, all he had to do was put in the password to get in. I closed my eyes and tried to tolerate the suspenseful seconds of silence. I breathed in hard, when I breathed out I grunted a little. I breathed in again as I prepped my head. I mapped my surroundings from my memory and recited a plan in my head as many times as I could.

I will have to bash open the door with my full body weight.

I will use my arms to give myself momentum to get through. 

I will find where he is standing, and get him away from the laptop.

Then I can finally finish my mission. I need to be perfect. There is not going to be much time between him logging in and deleting the files.

I hardly had enough time before I heard it.

The laptop let out a low bell sound. He had done it. My legs crushed the tile. I bounded through the hall, scraping the walls, floor, and soon, the door between me and the laptop was shattered and split everywhere. I crashed into the room and saw him opening the exact program I was here for. He didn’t even look at me, he was placing his cursor on the file with extreme focus.  One step later I run him over. My shoulder crushes his chest and sends him flying. He falls on his back and catches his breath before a sharp cough. I look up at the glowing monitor. “T.H.E.” was still on screen, intact and certainly not deleted or moved. My eyes went back down. He tried to drag himself out of the room, but I quickly grabbed his ankle.

“It’s Actions. Send a message.”

I had made an absolute mess of this mans co-workers. I thought of some of the worse ones. I had caused a lot of violence tonight. It got to the point where I guessed some victims wouldn’t be able to be identified by police. I refused to let myself go into detail. I was the cause, and I was disgusted by what happened. It doesn't matter what happened, all I know is that I need to continue to get creative with my assassinations.

I took a pen from the “World’s Best Dad” mug on the desk. That hurt me a little bit, knowing someone's father wouldn’t ever be home again. Some child has lost his dad. He’s simply gone. By my hand. There's nothing I could do now.

“Whatever it takes…”

 My mind stopped racing again. I quickly reminded myself why I was here and the idea didn't bother me much anymore. I plunged the pen into the side of my prey’s shaky throat. After our long chase, the man finally didn’t need to be scared anymore. He was gone. His throat shrunk slowly again as his heart stopped. I left the pen where I had jabbed it. I wanted someone else to have to clean up. I wasn’t up for the task, I would feel even more broken.

I finally pulled myself up, my paw had blood still stuck in it. I shook off what I could on my chest and stepped by the computer. I pride myself in being tech savvy. I set up the encryption address I determined earlier. After browsing through server lists, I found the one I wanted. It read “Washington D.C. (3) - STATUS: Private.”. This would be enough to scare the government. They already know what we are doing, might as well rub it in their face. I clicked the send button and began to wait. Just a few seconds later, I got the green light over my message. Finally I self destructed the message using the program I helped write beforehand. By the goals stated, the mission was officially a success.

On my way out, I broke what valuable property I could. I just wanted to cause as much expense as I could. I broke outlets, monitors, and server towers. Anything of value was in pieces. 

When I walked out, I took one last look at my victim. The man had run from me well. It’s sad he believed he died after causing a crisis. His lifeless eyes looked exhausted and even more shocked. I almost felt bad before I turned the corner, in hopes to never look at his corpse again.

 

After slowly traveling back the way I came from, my eyes set forward on where the exit doors were. I already knew what surrounded the path there, I didn’t need to see the blood and rubble again. I was close to the end of the hall, I could see the outside through the door shaped hole. The night was dark and gloomy. The beautiful wheat rustled in the wind. A cool breeze hit me as I got closer and closer. The moon was thin but still so bright. It was so peaceful for how violent my evening had been.

I cut through the grass. My fur ran through the tall wheat. I used the different hills to check my position and make sure I was going the right way. I hurried, if the clocks in the facility were correct, I had about 3 minutes to get to the checkpoint. I pushed through harder. I breathed heavier. Every step flew me forward just a little faster. If I wasn’t mistaken, I only had to travel another mile or two.

I heard a crowd nearby, and peaked around a massive rock. I saw the old market I had been told about. East should be disguised as a salesman on the edge of the venders square. I searched. He had to be here somewhere. I spotted a man in a red hat selling toys to children. I made out East’s signature golden eyes, even from above the other side of the market. I made a muffled growl in his direction. He looked right to the other edge of the square before meeting my gaze ahead of him. His head nodded, his eyes met a tall hill in front and to the left of me. I saw a small pouch right on top of it. It was marked as a first aid kit, but it was so out of place. I knew what it was really for.

I nodded back at east but he already began a distraction. “Oh no!” He yelped. 


A little firework toy had been lit by his foot. It hissed and sparks flew from the back of his makeshift shop. As everyone’s attention shifted to the other side of the square, I picked up the first aid kit and extracted the syringe. As soon as the small rocket gave liftoff, I jabbed the syringe in my chest and pushed the medication in. I felt the familiar needle feeling, as it stung my torso, and the liquid inside began to flow through my body. My heart rate increased immediately. My limbs felt weak. I almost fell backwards, but adjusted my weight forward. I was getting smaller. The clothing around me no longer seemed so tight. The firework exploded at a deafening volume. I was beyond startled as I accidentally jabbed the needle just too far into my chest. This caused me to face plant on the downward slope ahead of me. I fell down the hill and towards the square, spinning quickly. I tried to stop myself, but I was already speeding down the hill much too fast. All I could see was dirt rolling around me. My head was rotating rapidly and I almost completely forgot about the needle. 

“If they see that, they will test it for the treatment. You’ll be done!”

I reached for the syringe, but my hand was crushed by my body landing on my wrist. I tried again, and pulled part of the needle out before the hill crushed my chest again. I composed myself. The wind was being rapidly knocked out of me after every spin. I put all of my attention into removing the needle. As my chest crashed into the hill one last time, I moved swiftly. I was able to extract the needle and drop it  in the thick wheat grass just a second before I landed in the square.

I quickly checked my hand. I needed to make sure I looked completely human. Sure enough, my fur was gone. I had pale, smooth skin and my sharp claws had been replaced with finger nails. My feet had shorted down and the hair covering my face had dulled down to a short beard.

I am no longer a wolf, for now, I am a man.

I started to get to my feet, but an owner of a shop helped me up before I was completely vertical

“Thank you.”

My voice was very smooth compared to my usual growls. I hardly recognized it as my own.

“Your chest is bleeding.”

I looked down. It was dripping profusely. The needle left a deep scrape and was drawing more blood then I would have expected.

“Must have been a rock I tripped on earlier”

“I have a bandage somewhere around here.”

He searched his little shop. His treatment would only make the problem worse. East was the only one who could really help.

“No thanks, I can get one somewhere else.”

“Well what’s the point of that when you can get one here?”

Unfortunately he was right. I couldn’t muster out any excuse as to get a bandage from East that wouldn’t cause suspicion.

“You are losing blood fast, please, lie down.”

“I HAVE IT FROM HERE!”

East ran to me, his voice was as loud and provocative as ever. He spoke too quick in order for the shop owner to muster in any words.

“I have my own treatments in my shop. He could have snake venom in his chest and all sorts of harmful diseases. I can heal him quicker.”

He picked up my arm too tightly. It hurt, but I wanted the shop owner to think East is the responsible person he is claiming to be.

“I don’t think you should…”

“Sorry to take him from you, I just really don’t want you to waste your precious first aid when I have plenty in my booth!”

There wasn’t any protest from the man as we left the booth. In fact he fell completely silent and stared us down as we walked off.

East helped me to his little “shop.” It was quite nice, and yet such a simple design, being pitched up by wood and a cloth. He sat me down and poured some alcohol onto a rag and dabbed my bleeding chest.

“Hold it there.” he said as he handed the cloth to me.

I got comfortable and breathed heavy.

East dug under a counter in search of something. “I called in a ATV, you will be picked up shortly.”

“So the flights a no go?”

“After a closer look, your condition right now would be fatal to a real human. Anyone on the plane would insist you get a doctors assistance.”

“Can’t I just hide my cut?”

“I wouldn’t call that just a cut. That wound could bleed through almost any fabric. Besides, I’ve already made the call.”

I didn’t oppose any longer. I just sat back and waited for the ATV to arrive.

We sat in silence for a couple minutes. I broke the silence after realizing that we could be here a while longer.

“Why is there no patrol out here?” I asked

“It’s too rural, and poor.” East replied

“Doesn't that mean crime would be more present?”

East didn’t look at me. I don’t know if he was looking for the ATV or the subject was too sensitive for him to bear. “These days it’s the wealthy trying to get the cuts of illegal trade. To even buy in on T.H.E. takes millions. The government dosn’t want to be involved in penny theft when they get more from catching blue bloods.”

“What about the violence that happens out here? There are more crimes that aren’t just for money.”

“They don’t care, these people are just pawns to them. The government is focusing more on the weapons like you.”

“Why?”

“They have fear.”

We both paused. I thought about it for a while before I spoke.

“Of me?”

“Yes.”

My claws felt restrained against the medal gloves around my paws. A chain connected them to the floor of the van. I was stored in a big box storage unit attached to the van. I was being transported with three armed guards to keep me in check during the long drive. I sat just to the right of a soldier while the other two where in front of me. I peeked through the caged window on the back of the van. Las Vegas was finally out of sight. Turning my eyes just over, I saw the one other van following us. I had already saw one ahead of us as we boarded the vehicle earlier, so I deducted that I was completely surrounded.

It had been about half an hour since we left. We have been traveling through empty desert for fifteen minutes. After 5 more minutes we would be out of anyone's sight. I had a sneaking suspicion they were finally ready to terminate me. The grueling experiments towards me had been happening all year, and in between the glances at secret files I snuck in and the immense quantity of testing, I don’t think there is much else to do to me. I can’t be replicated, theres no more of me, and I am too dangerous and too unique to be worth the money the Government put into me.

The van bounced over a rock and everyone in the back with me shook with it. It felt like I suddenly woke up from a long day dream. Even though everything around me was the same, it still felt a little different. I naturally did something I haven’t ever thought of doing before. And it felt like second nature.

I looked for a way out. I ran through every option of escape. I counted my odds. Where, how, and when will I escape and save myself? I devised a plan in my head. I haven’t ever thought of trying anything rebellious, but it felt so familiar to do.

Nevertheless, I thought:

The medal gloves around my paws would ruin the lethality of my claws. The chain that connected from the gloves to the floor would restrict my movement slightly, but I could still whirl my legs around, and jab my elbows at the guards. Since they were armed, I needed to either disarm them or take them out before they could get a shot on me. Even if they missed their shots, the other vans in front and behind us would hear it. I would need to hurry before they even tried to shoot me.

I didn’t have much of a chance, but the odds that I could escape were higher then the odds of them letting me live.

The soldiers still seemed to have their guard up. Though they were alert, they were nowhere near as animated as they were earlier. I figured now was a good time to strike.

My leg plunged into the side of the man to my left. He dropped his gun and clutched his broken ribs. The two guards in front of me picked up what was happening. I crashed my body into the one ahead of me before he could reach his gun. His head sagged as I moved out from his torso and began to eye the soldier next to him. He switched to the other side of the van away from my reach and aimed his rifle to my chest.

“PUT YOUR HANDS UP! GET DOWN AND DON’T MOVE”

I did as he asked, dropping to a knee and putting my restrained paws as high as the chain would let them. It was only barely above my head, so the chain dangled in front of my nose.

“Why not shoot me?” I growled. My voice almost startled him as he stopped and thought. We both seemed to have taken a large breath.

“Any last words?” He asked as his voice shook the van.

I thought for a minute and devised a plan. “Just a question…” I responded.

“Well…?”

“Where are you going to shoot me?” 

He stopped and thought again before answering. “Your head.”

“Very well, go on. Please, in between the eyes, one bullet.”

I put all my energy into staring at the guard's pointer finger as he held the trigger to his rifle next to it. He breathed a heavy breath. My eyes didn’t leave his finger. I saw the little fat on his finger start to collapse. I dropped the connecting edge of the medal gloves just below my forehead, covering my eyes as fast as I could.

BANG
I felt the force of the bullet, but my arms were strong enough to block the force. The connection between my hands and the chain was broken. My arms felt free.

I flipped backwards, and kicked the gun out of the soldier's hand. It hit the ceiling and crashed to the floor. My claws were still held by medal, but my arms were entirely free.

The van stopped suddenly, they must have heard the shot. The two futile guards slid to the front wall, but me and the soldier were able to hold our ground. I sprawled forward and launched my fist into the last functioning guard's head. His head hit the side of the van and shattered his skull. There was blood in the front and back of his head. That was the first time I killed anyone.

I heard shouting outside, there were at least 4 more guards coming. I grabbed two of the rifles on the ground and peaked out of the caged window and saw three guards from the van behind. I lifted the two rifles against the wall and kept my eyes out the window. I then held down the two triggers. Bullets penetrated right through the wall and began to spray through the guards. I hit one in the arm, dropping his weapon, and killed the other two before the ammunition ran out.

I heard more soldiers yelling from the van riding in front. I grabbed a sidearm pistol and a small lighter from the belt of a corpse and kicked open the back door of the van. The soldier's footsteps came from behind me, to the left and right side of the van. 

I turned, side stepped left and let out a quick shot, right to the head of a guard. There was another behind the engine of the van. I put a bullet through the body of the vehicle right where I believed the fuel reserve was. Dark fluid gushed out from the bullet hole. I threw the lighter from my left hand into the dripping fuel. It lit the fuel immediately, burning the front of the car, and the man behind the engine. He ran off from his cover, on fire and yelling, long enough to put a perfect shot to his head.

I heard footsteps on the reverse side of the van, I looked down and found a moving shadow. I followed the angle of the silhouette with my arm and shot right through the van. I heard a small yelp before the shadow stopped moving. It widened as I heard his body hit the ground.

I heard rapid shots clank against the vans body. I ducked for cover. I crouched down and snuck back to where the other dead guards were. The one whose arm I shot earlier finally had the strength to stand. He began to reach for a pistol with his unharmed hand, but I punched his chest before he could recover. I felt his ribs break, and his gun fell to the ground. With him. I lifted his back up from the ground and took the strap attached to his gun out from under him. I perched the rifle near my shoulder and held it to the edge of the van, waiting for the other soldier to enter my line of sight. I kept my guard up as I steadily walked closer to my original position.

I heard more clanging and I ducked down fast. I listened again for footsteps but I couldn’t hear anything. They were waiting for me.

The fire from the burning fuel sent smoke into the air. The heat of the desert drew sweat from everyone. Warm blood covered my hairy limbs. My thick clawed finger felt tight, and ready to pull the trigger to the weapon at any moment.

I shot once into the air in order to startle the man shooting at me. I then popped out of my cover and held down the trigger. I found who had been targeting me and lodged a few shots in his chest. I didn’t see the second guard, on one knee with his pistol drawn, aiming right at me.

I felt a strong blow hit my right shoulder. Immediately I stepped back behind the van. I couldn’t help but let out a growl. It burned. My whole shoulder felt weak. My arm was sizzling with pain. I hissed at the air and clutched the wound with my left hand, pressing my body against the warm medal on the van. 

I heard more bullets crash around me. I took a knee to decrease my surface area, and lessen the likelihood of being hit. My large ears felt like they were going to explode from all the shooting. Bullets whizzed by my head. Holes appeared all across the iron wall.

I heard a click, his magazine ran out. My paw planted in the dirt. I twisted my body and jumped at the trigger happy guard. the old round of ammunition was already on the ground and he was reaching for a new one.

I felt the pain in my shoulder from running on all fours. But it didn’t stop me from running fast. He got the new magazine in the rifle. He cocked it and began to aim for my head. I let out one last pounce. 

It was enough, he fell back and lost stability of the gun. I stood on top of him. His finger was still firm on the trigger, sending shells flying everywhere. His gun was facing above his head, and bullets  where sent out to nowhere in the desert.

I clawed at his face. He was dead long before I was done attacking him. My claws where covered in blood, but it didn’t stop me from repeatedly slashing.

“Your intensity should be focused somewhere else…”

I turned around, thinking there was another guard talking to me.

Instead, I was greeted by a man in a suit. He seemed to come out of no where. I didn’t recognize him. I couldn’t identify how he got here.

“Hello,” he said. “You must be the invention I keep hearing the stories about. How long have you been trapped in the west facility? 2, maybe 3 years?”

I was panting from the exertion. I still thought, but, I couldn’t draw an answer for him. “What are you doing?” I asked.

“I am just here to help you wolf. We are hoping you can help us in return”

I ignored the hidden request, being more confused about the first thing he said. “I’m not a wolf.”

“No, your name is wolf, correct?”

I thought. I never thought about me. I didn’t know. I didn’t know my own name.

“We are worried that you have been subject to mind twisting. Your brain has been meddled with,” he said. “What do you know about yourself?”

My mind still went blank. “I… I am a weapon.”

“Who told you that?”

“I just figured it out.”

He laughed a little. “Do you want to know who you are?”

I did, but I didn’t say anything

“Well, I do. The people…” he paused and collected his thoughts. “The people who took you and made you into who you are, they don’t want you to know anything. They keep you dumb. But, they made a work around. If my information is good, your brain works like a computer. You can just plug in information and you know what you need to immediately.”

I breathed in. I didn’t want to understand what he was saying.

He continued, “But, you can also wipe whatever information in your head that someone would desire. It’s how they keep someone as dangerous as you in check.”
I was in shock, I couldn’t say anything.

“I know… this is a lot…” he said.

“Am I even real?” I asked.
“Yes, you are. You are mostly human, even despite how you look and how you are built.”

“How do you know more about me then I do?”

“Well, do you trust me?” he said.

I had only known him for minutes. But, he talked to me more then anyone else I known ever had. He knew me somehow. I wanted to know more. I wanted to be able to trust someone when I couldn’t even trust myself. I choked up.

“I… think so.”
He took another long breath and looked at me right in my eyes. He seemed to have been ignoring the corpses around me until now.

“Know this, your power to kill can be used to save,” he said. “All this around you, that power, it can help others. Do you want that  wolf”

“I do.”

He pulled out a usb drive from his pocket.

“Come with me.” he said.

“Wait.” I shouted. “Who are you?”

“You can call me East.”



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