Time stands still,
I’m lost deep in thought,
This empty space that I need to fill,
Brings back all of the demons I’ve fought,
They’re laughing, taunting, teasing me,
Rubbing it in my face,
Trying to tear me down from where I’m meant to be,
I’m losing my place,
I hold on for dear life,
But there’s only so much I can take,
Struggling to put down the knife,
Can’t you tell that my smile’s fake?
Now I’m digging my way out of this hole,
That’s a thousand feet deep,
It’s surely taking a toll,
And you wonder why I can’t sleep,
Memories from my past are clouding up my brain,
Drowning out my voice,
I’m showing all the pain,
‘Cuz I have no other choice,
These words are pouring out,
But not making a sound,
Even if I shout,
My sanity cannot be found,
What’s even worse,
Is that I infect my loved ones,
I’m like a curse,
That’s why they all run,
You’d think by now I’d have learned my lesson,
Not to trust,
But here’s my confession,
You see, I must,
I still have hope,
That one day maybe I’ll live happily,
I’ll be able to cope,
With no worry of catastrophe.