Dying to live and living to die  
They all say what a time 
To be alive  
But I'm too far gone  
I've been living this lie  
For far too long  

Ask if I'm ok, I say that I'm fine 
I’m done with this life  
I’m trapped in my mind  
backstabbed and abandoned to many times 
I want to open up  
I don't know if I should 
This life I live is a scary one 
So, I put up my hood  
I avoid everyone 
My happiness was stolen 
By these demons I'm fighting 
Its ten to one 
I can’t overcome 
I've giving in 
They already won 
I'm past my climax  
Popping pills to try and relax 
I feel like Ima freaking relapse 

This life I’m living ain't real  
just a product of my past  
I'm artificial 
Like a piece of glass 
Play with my emotions 
I might break I‘m brittle  
I'm breaking down  
I need a lifeline  
I’ve fallen out 
But they give me a boulder  
And watch me drown