I wanted to talk about it,

Damn it.

I wanted to scream

I wanted to yell,

I wanted to shout about it.

But all I could do was pop some more pills,

and take another drink.

I wanted to be happy,

I wanted to smile 

God knows those haven't been real awhile.

But I also wanted it to be over,

I DIDN"T want to fight anymore

I didn't want to hang on any longer.

I didn't want to pop any more pills

I didn't want to drink anymore

I wanted to die,

I wanted to be free

I wanted to be me again.

So I decided,

I wanted more pills

I wanted more drinks

Now I'll drift off to sleep.

With no more tears

no more sadness.

I always get,

What I wanted......