I believe
In never erasing anything
In keeping every single word
I write
Sometimes
I feel like I need
To record every thought
That comes into my head
Or I will forget it

But somehow
My approach on life is different
In life
I like to often
Start over
With a blank page
Even when I can’t
And sometimes
I wish I could skip ahead
A few chapters
In this book
I’m writing
But I can’t do that
In real life
Either
So I guess
I will just keep writing
Page by page
And I will try
Very hard
To not wish
I could change
My unwritten pages
That I know
Have an outline already written down
Still I keep wondering
What my future holds
Actually
I can change my life
But only in the now
Everything I do
Determines my fate
Do you believe in fate?
I do
Though sometimes it’s hard
Hard to trust in it too
And I tell myself
‘You are never given anything you can’t handle’
That doesn’t help
What if I am - (given something I can’t handle)
But I was meant to
Please
I don’t ever want to die young!

My mantra helps slightly
And it’s shorter
‘Everything happens for a reason’
Everything happens for a reason-
But for what reason?
I have so many questions
But no answers
Noanswersnoanswersnoanswers
Breathe
T R U S T
I will try