If I were a color, it would be periwinkle
like the stuffed animal my parents gave to me when I was three
not knowing it would be the one thing I took everywhere with me
to noisy restaurants
the bright yellow covered day care
and to sleep.
My stuffed animal in one hand and holding my dad with the other
I walked around the park looking at ducks in the water
They splashed around waiting for the bread
that people bring every morning
I wanted to be like them
carefree and together, like a family
I looked up to my older cousin
because she was the closest thing I had to a sister
when I was overwhelmed with loneliness
only children felt deep in their heart.
I hated going places without her
I begged her to go to dinner with me
and she asked for my stuffed animal
I loved that periwinkle rabbit
but I wanted her there with me more
and I gave it to her.
Just like that
it was gone.
My favorite periwinkle rabbit stuffed animal.