Every time I close my eyes, I hear her voice.
I hear her telling me goodbye,
I hear her screams.
I hear the footsteps a moment before I hear her screams.
I hear her calling my name in the darkness.
I hear her ask me why.
Why I let this happen to her.
Why I couldn’t stop it in time.
Why.
Why?
Why did I let this happen?
What happened to me?
I am plagued with guilt.
Every time I close my eyes, I hear her telling me goodbye.
I am so scared.
What is going to happen to me?
When is this going to stop?
I am so tired, but yet I can’t sleep.
I am operating on autopilot.
I can’t get anything done.
I am worried, but no one else is.
I am invisible to everyone.
I am so tired.
I can scream until I have no willpower left, but yet no one hears me.
What can I do?
I lie there in my bed, staring blankly at the walls.
I can’t keep going like this.
I am giving up.
I can’t take it anymore.
I am a disappointment to those around me.
I am tired of putting up a front.
All I want to do is give up.
So, I will.
I’m giving up.