For awhile being sober was fine

I kept telling myself

"It's mind over matter"

After awhile

The need

The momories

The feeling engulfed me whole
And poisoned my mind

Secretly

My mind tried to escape

To where there is no such thing as "sober"

Slowly the days crept by

Every night the monster inside my soul

Would poison me little by little

Until I finally broke

It started with a cigarette 

Then the monster took over

It locked my soul in the dark

And I was no longer in control

Inside my hand

It was so close I could almost taste it

"You sacred

It's not going to hurt you

You're strong
You're in control"

It was me against the monster

The poison was too strong

My hand opened the capsule 

Dumped straight down my throat 

Chased with Ginger-Ale

The monster unlocked the door

And my soul was free

Until my body absorbed the beads

I licked my lips

A sigh of relief escapes my damaged lungs

A smile crosses my face

And my mind starts to race

Within moments my mind was free

"I have missed you sweet enemy"

The monster hugs me tightly 

And the high takes me on a wild ride