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Testaments of Loneliness

May 14, 2015
By MrsTravvieXD GOLD, Palmdale, California
MrsTravvieXD GOLD, Palmdale, California
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Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.


Sadness is not tragically beautiful


These scars scattering my body are not symbols of strength
They are jagged testaments of loneliness
Screaming from my skin


And these tears
These tears are not like rain
They are not soft and soothing
They do not caress my skin and calm my nerves
They pour down my face
Coating it in a bitter sadness I can't seem to erase


Not even from my pores


And these demons
These demons in my head cannot be dispelled by prayers, pills, or promises of a better  tomorrow


They crawl up my spine
Spitting their poison into my veins
Whispering deceit into my brain
Telling me I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough


I'll never be good enough


And I try, I try to fight
But I'm failing, I'm falling and


I can't get up

Can't you see


I'm drowning while you're standing there screaming at me to "just breathe"
But it's not that easy

It's not that easy

This is not some beautiful tragedy
It is a sickness
A mental disease taking over my body

Can't you see
This sadness is killing me.


The author's comments:

I wrote this piece to shine a light on the stigmas of mental diseases. I wanted those with or without them to see and understand what it's like to have one. They are grueling, mind altering diseases and they are something to be taken seriously. 


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on May. 19 2015 at 6:28 pm
MrsTravvieXD GOLD, Palmdale, California
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Favorite Quote:
Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.

Thank you for all of your comments and love! This particular piece means a lot to me and I'm beyond happy you all like it :)

on May. 19 2015 at 4:00 pm
BvbFanGirl SILVER, Toledo, Illinois
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"Everyone wants happiness, but you can't make a rainbow without a little rain."

I agree with @Anna2274

dya.o PLATINUM said...
on May. 19 2015 at 10:28 am
dya.o PLATINUM, Milton, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;If consensus is overrated, I think balance is, too.<br /> I have no interest in living a balanced life.<br /> I want a life of adventure.&rdquo; | Chris Guillebeau

This is one of the most, ironically, tragically beautiful poems I've ever read on here. I love this, and I love how you didn't beautify the cruel reality of having a mental disease. This is so true and I can relate on a deep level. Thank you for sharing this, and please continue writing!

Anna2274 GOLD said...
on May. 19 2015 at 10:16 am
Anna2274 GOLD, Effingham, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember; you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.&quot; -Harriet Tubman.

I love this so much. It needed to be put out there.