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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”



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m1na GOLD said...
on Apr. 28 2019 at 11:43 am
m1na GOLD, Olympia, Washington
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This is an incredible poem!

on Mar. 26 2014 at 3:54 pm
AloneandFree SILVER, Williamston, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
Rise above the storm and you will find the sunshine.<br /> -Mario Fernandez

Wow...i dont even know what to say that was amazing.. cant wait to read more

lovely_bones said...
on Jan. 18 2013 at 1:53 pm
lovely_bones, Houston, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
i love makeing poetry,i write books, very helpful,kind, firendly,im americahn mixed with italian,white,mexicain, love spending time with family , love reading poetry, books

i love your poem it was so bueatiful to  me like i have never read something like this that makes me feel excited your a good poet

on Dec. 31 2012 at 3:17 pm
sadesdd DIAMOND, Elma, Iowa
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I love the last line because the emotional part of it just gets to you.

on Oct. 16 2012 at 3:19 pm
Savannainthesky GOLD, West Suffield, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;It may have been in pieces.. but I gave you the best of me&quot;-Jim Morrison(the doors)

That was really emotional, and good chice of woords,keep it up!

on Jul. 20 2012 at 7:14 pm
ctowle PLATINUM, Claremont, New Hampshire
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Favorite Quote:
life and love go hand in hand take your fall and hope you land

wow! i got goosebumps this is magnificant great choice in words.

LunaLives GOLD said...
on Apr. 15 2012 at 12:01 pm
LunaLives GOLD, South Bend, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
Because I can!-Me &quot;Life is a choice and death is a decision&quot;-Lil Wayne

I have been in that exact same situation before.

on Mar. 1 2012 at 1:32 pm
jeseer PLATINUM, Auburntown, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Truth without love is a killer, but love without truth is a liar. The Bible commands us to have both: It says to speak the truth in love.&quot;--Elliott Nesch<br /> &quot;To love another person is to see the face of God.&quot;--Victor Hugo

Wow. That was great!

navien BRONZE said...
on Jan. 26 2012 at 10:07 pm
navien BRONZE, Newmarket, Other
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well this was just lovely :)

on Jan. 26 2012 at 2:49 pm
Sammy817 BRONZE, Fort Worth, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
You can&#039;t break what is already broken

Amazing!!!!! :)

Esraa BRONZE said...
on Jan. 4 2012 at 12:39 pm
Esraa BRONZE, Bronx, New York
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its very emotional nd deep thoughts in it

on Jan. 4 2012 at 9:38 am
poet.lover PLATINUM, Pineville, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in this life.&quot;

it's amzing how you connected the beginning of this poem to the end of it and how you achieved that with such deep emotions. i wonder what caused this poem to come about...and also, who's journal it was. but this poem reaches such deep emotions and i really love it! please, look at some of my work, thanks :)

on Dec. 13 2011 at 8:42 pm
WaffleManThing, Vallejo, California
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;just keep swimming...&quot; by dory. :)

i woved it, btu i will forever wonder what was it that he read from her journal of the previous night?

JLNJLN BRONZE said...
on Dec. 13 2011 at 5:39 am
JLNJLN BRONZE, Henderson, Nevada
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Favorite Quote:
As of this moment, a favorite of mine is...<br /> <br /> &quot;Tell me and I&#039;ll forget. Show me and I&#039;ll remember. Involve me and I&#039;ll understand.&quot; ~Confucius

This is the epitome of beauty. It is awe-inspiring. I literally heard myself spill the world, "wow," from my mouth upon my completion of reading this. Please, give me more.

sarawho382 said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 11:02 pm
sarawho382, Del Mar, California
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i really like this one! keep it up all your work is amazing :)

autumn8 BRONZE said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 9:46 pm
autumn8 BRONZE, Seattle, Washington
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This a really amazing poem..I love the way you tell the story because its not exactly straight forward, its kind of goes backwards like a memory does. 

Fia-fia BRONZE said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 5:15 pm
Fia-fia BRONZE, Bethesda, Maryland
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wonderful! I dont completely understand this, but that is part of the fun of poetry. Thank you

:)


on Nov. 21 2011 at 4:58 pm
RaveFire PLATINUM, Vancouver, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Sometimes You Have To Give Up Your Life To Save It.&quot; ~some book that i don&#039;t remember the name of<br /> <br /> &quot;Live Life Like There&#039;s No Yesterday&quot; ~ random billboard<br /> <br /> &quot;If No One Can Hurt You, Then Nobody Loves You&quot; ` ~ Kerli?

magical...

on Nov. 21 2011 at 12:51 pm
MarissaWhitecloud SILVER, Oskaloosa, Iowa
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Wonderful Poem. I thought it was beautiful.

on Nov. 21 2011 at 9:15 am
makaylaaarianna BRONZE, Covington, Georgia
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Great poem. Check out mine !