i think i'm losing myself
no one is seeming to notice
hanging over that cliff of
constant blankness,sliding
slowly,surely,downward
into the endless dark
its a soft blanket down here
comforting
i am okay until i come to
again
but even then
i open my eyes with a
smile,before realizing
i am back to reality
how no one notices its not
me
walking around in this body
i don't know
i could warn them
beforehand
when i start feeling dizzy,
lost,
and unreasonably sleepy
when it all feels
wonderfully surreal
and for an odd moment
i am floating
not even here
looking at myself from the
outside
a new point of view brought
to light
when i know what i'm doing
but cant bring myself to
care
to make the right decision
but its like i'm not even
there
when i think i'm sitting
perfectly still
but then see the edges of
my shadow i catch a chill
i realize i'm rocking
back & forth,back & forth
impossibly small
movements
incredibly slow
these are the lost moments,
although i am still here
are the last seconds
i am fully aware.