Missing my train was a blessing, a pleasant surprise,

it meant I could gaze into your deep blue eyes.
You would return from a club or social so gracefully,
an opposite to my heart beating distastefully.

Your voice so soft, my bad day became radiant,
though I’d never follow our talks, my memory so vacant.
I wish I could, but I’d get lost in your smile
Your perfume, your touch; it all made me go wild.

None of this was new; it had been the same since we first met,
I’d known you seven years, yet my palms would still sweat,
My breathing, my words, you took it all away.
I knew from day one, to be with you, I still pray.

I lied to myself, made excuses. Said I could not.
You were busy, taken, too pretty. No chance I had got.
This bulls*** hit me hard. Missed my chance and
you’ve gone away, I should’ve fought harder. “Carpe diem” if I had brains.
I’d have done much more; write love songs, buy flowers, red roses but on the floor
I lay here now day and night,
Our moments are over and I’ve lost all meaning in my life .