I don't even know anymore.

I feel like I live in my mind, like there's someone else controling my body.

I feel dead almost.

Having anemia, and all, I guess that's what you feel.

The constant struggle to continue the day when you litterally can't even keep your eyes open.

You can't even think with the pounding in your head.

And still having to study for a stupid vocab quiz.

Pain killers don't help.

Neither does people telling me it's gonna be fine.

I hate those words.

All I want to do is slam my head into the wall, hoping for any sort of relief.

Maybe then my body will say enoughs enough and it shuts down, and I get to go to the ER.

The things I hope for.

Ha.