before I say anything else, just know I loved you
the love I have for you is intense and confusing and real
and I'm using the present tense because I still do love you
there is no past tense in love
but the ferocity at which I loved you turned out to be our doom
you couldn't provide me with the love I needed, you just weren't capable
the day I started searching for happiness in you was the day depression hit me
cause happiness is an inside job, only I could provide that
when things were going good, they were great
but when the going got tough you recoiled
and that was weak of you, and I don't need that
I thought there would be endless tears by now
but no, I'm not sad cause I tried
and I'm not even gonna be upset because I realized you didn't even take this serious at all
why get upset over missing a train I didn't even buy a ticket for?
I mean why be bummed? I have the rest of my life to fall apart
I started all this and you couldn't even finish the ending
so I became it