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My Reality

March 7, 2014
By PoetryFromTheHeart GOLD, Watertown, Tennessee
PoetryFromTheHeart GOLD, Watertown, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;All that is gold does not glitter,<br /> Not all those who wander are lost;<br /> The old that is strong does not wither,<br /> Deep roots are not reached by the frost.&quot;<br /> -Tolkien


I see life
Happiness
With no sadness in sight of others
I paste on a fake smile in moments
But, it can’t be real
Life is all smiles
Laughs and giggles with friends
Home is not reality
Home is only where sadness exists
Only in my mind

I see mother screaming
Eyes blazing
Accusing me of wrong I never committed
Voice bouncing off the wall
Scaring me
I convince myself it isn’t reality
Or maybe
I am just not good enough
No I am fine
Mother says I just need to lose weight
And clear up my skin
Then reality will come back
Happiness will flow abundantly
But tell no one
They must not know
That sadness has invaded me
Shush keep it locked away
And paint a smile
That is reality


The author's comments:
How I felt in 7th grade when I first began feeling suicidal and depressed

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Nobuo GOLD said...
on Apr. 11 2014 at 1:35 pm
Nobuo GOLD, Dio, Missouri
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Hello

Change your perception and the reality with change to what you believe in.  Keep writing.  Thanks for sharing your feelings