Here I am again
Back into the same patterns
I don't know why
I just do
There is never any thought
Just action
People wonder all the time
But I don't care
I don't mind wearing heavy clothing
Even when it's too hot out
I pick up this razor
Craving the feel of the slice
I can practically taste
The blood on my lips
Sliding down my throat
Bandages in reach
I place the blade against my skin
Cold to the touch
Remembering the pain
I drag it across
Feeling the way the veins open
I know the blood's coming
One slice for one reason, one pain
My body covered once more
Society opens up to me
Nobody knows the dark secret I keep
Nobody would care
Once again I fall into the pattern
And now I can feel my breath
Coming in short, slow
I know that I am leaving
Please nobody go on
Grieving over me
Here I am again
Lost in my own despair