if only you knew how I really feel maybe you wouldn't have try so hard to be with me

if only you knew I still had feelings for him maybe you wont be there anymore or maybe you might have try harder

if only you knew that I cant go a day without thinking about him

you might be mad at me and think I am a mess and ask why do I like hurting myself

you might say why am I trying so hard to be with someone that don't want to be with me

and you would say why am I pushing you away or you might ask me why I cant trust you

you would get mad at me when I say I cant trust you but its not cause of you I just have trust issues

you might not want to talk to me when I say I still love him and that I miss him so much that it hurt

it just hurt so much that sometime I just find myself crying for no reason but its not for no reason im crying for him I want his love and I miss him

nobody can ever replace him because he left this hole in my heart that no one can ever fill or heal it

I try to move on and I try to forget about him but I end up think about him every second

its like no matter how hard I try Stacey will always be my first love my first for everything

im sorry

if only you knew how I feel right now if only you feel how I feel

if only I told you why I get sad or moody it all because of Stacey

if only I told you about him maybe you might understand what im talking about or how I fee also why I just daze off when people talk to me