What we were:
We were together, I know,
together and we were kissingkissingkissing
and we made lovelovelove
and we swore our love together, I know,
and we said we made each other complete
and all of that.
We were together
and no one even knew because
we were too afraid to say a word
as if our love was like a bubble
and saying it aloud would be like
popping it.
We were each other's life
because we had no life
and we were each other's soul
because our souls were defective
and we were each other's hearts
because our hearts were shattered long ago
and that's what we were to each other.
We tried to tell each other that we were everything to each other
but we were nothing at all
(because how could we be when we were nothing as people?)
and so two broken people tried to put themselves together
to make themselves whole
but we didn't. It didn't work.
You said, "Stay" to me like I was a dog but
I said I was going, I said go and then
we fought and
even though you said you couldn't bear to lose me,
I went.
You were a drug:
I wanted more, more, more but
I couldn't do you anymore; you would kill me if I didn't stop.

And now what are we to each other?
I can't quite figure it out
but it feels like I'm losing someone
I've never had in the first place
but I have an empty hole in the place you once were
and the emptiness aches and
it feels like I'm losing the only part of me I had left
and you say you miss me
as you curse me
and I miss you too, if I'm to be honest
but I can't go back.
Now I'm just wondering what we are to each other
or if we should be anything at all given all of this
because we're still figuring this out
and I'm wondering what we were
if we were anything at all
because that's what we were, that's what we are now.