So feeble,
Flimsy,
Like it’s nothing
But a
Half-hearted
Final attempt
At something
I don’t even
Understand.
And I leave it
To fester
Into the dangerous
Tangle of emotions
That comes with
Desire,
With envy.

Unexplainable
How you make my
Heart
Palpitate
And my fingers
Fidget.
I cannot verbalize
The soliloquy
Eternally forming in
My mind,
A scrolling teleprompter,
Starting
And ending
With your name.

So frozen am I
In a schoolgirl crush,
Unremarkable
And unoriginal,
Slipping into bed
And asking God
To grant my
Petty,
Insignificant
Wishes
Because all I want
Is to hold your hand
And kiss in your car
And rest my head
On your chest.

Ambiguity
Is thick in
The air
Around you,
Leaving me
In a cloud of
Uneasiness,
Mimicking
Your nonchalance,
Your detachment,
On the outside,
But forever frozen
In a relentless and
Unmerciful
Limbo.