I remember how strong my feelings were,
How much I smiled when I thought of you.
In my head I would picture us together,
Even if it was too good to ever be true.
Everything you said made me laugh,
And your simple presence kept me happy.
But just as your life so easily cheered me,
It so easily broke me heart in half.
So after that, my feelings faded away,
Yet a small part of me wished they would stay.
It's stupid, but do you realize how content I was?
There was always a smile on my face,
And, honestly, I enjoyed every part.
My friends teasing me all the time,
How I got nervous and turned tomato red,
Even when you broke my fragile heart.
If you touched me for end a second
My insides would bubble and churn
As I tried my very hardest not to react
Only to stiffen and feel my cheeks burn.
As I look back on my entire past
I realize that what I want is to feel this way again,
To have a person that gets me all anxious
And constantly acting mischievous.
I miss having a lame, school girl crush
Because of that never ending rush
That I get with every hello, chat, goodbye or text
I get excited with anything having to do with him.
But it's over, and I don't know how long until the next.