This is my life.

The sound of the waves,
Walking across the beach at 7 in the morning.
Digging for clams and finding, nothing

This is my life

Diving into the water,
The smell of chlorine.
The water covering every part of my body.

This is my life.

Seeing the ball fly across the field,
The vibration going from the bat to my hands.
making the winning hit.

This is my life.

My life is filled with many things.
It`s filled with pain, and joy,
Happiness, and regret.

I try to make them disappear,
But, i can`t.
I try to make them nothing,
But, their always something.

Something that won`t go away,
That stays forever.
Something i feel in everything,
But feel it in nothing.

Me,
The pain I feel is in me.
The feelings I feel, are because of what I do.

If I didn't do crazy things,
Or play different sports.
I would feel nothing like i do know.

So what?
Am I suppose to stop doing crazy stuff?
Am i suppose to be as they call "normal"?

Because if I did they I would be someone else.
If I didn't do crazy stuff then i`d be just like that girl in her room?
If I stopped playing sports, then i`d be like that kid who dose nothing but plays video games?

NO!
I don`t want to be like her, or him, we, them, she, he,
Or Even IT!

All i want to be.........
Is Me.
i want to be how I have always been.

i want to be someone that everyone knows,
But not for mad things.
Someone they know as a cool kid, but also a good girl.

Everything that I want people to see me as is who I am.
So I don`t have to change,
All I have to do, is be me.

And This Is MY Life.