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Torn Apart

October 10, 2009
By XxMPbabeMpxX SILVER, Fulton, Missouri
XxMPbabeMpxX SILVER, Fulton, Missouri
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IPod turned up too loud
giving her the migraine she so desperately needs
To tune out the sound of the people she's grown to hate
sitting against the wall
hiding deep in the shadows
waiting to find a way back home
hoping one day she won’t be the loner that she feels she is inside
and hoping that one day someone will call her name
but she's not letting her eyes betray a single strand of thought

sitting all alone in a dark room
wondering what she did to deserve her doom
terrified of when SHE'LL come home
and waiting for the day when she, herself is gone
listening to the songs that spark tragedy in her soul
such as a door closing behind the one who left
goodbyes and love you’s playing on repeat
each one bringing more anguish then she can even believe
she turns off the sound and finds comfort in a novel
but in her head she's screaming at the top of her lungs

"somebody come find me alone in the dark
wrap me in your arms and leave no remark
push my hair out of my face
and leave behind your sweet trace
someone come find me and rid me of these tears
love me without regret and take away my fears"

as she sits and she reads
a single tear falls down her face
onto the pages of the book below
smearing the words into a black filled river
knowing no one will ever love her the way she needs
and no one will ever get rid of the screams

"somebody come find me alone in the dark
wrap me in your arms and leave no remark
push my hair out of my face
and leave behind your sweet trace
someone come find me and rid me of these tears
love me without regret and take away my fears"

and still, there she sits
with the words of love fading
into the terrifying screams

"someone come find me alone in the dark
Someone come kiss me and let's watch the spark
so that maybe I won’t rip myself apart..."


The author's comments:
ummm...I wrote this one day while i was waiting for the bus to come pick me up at school to take me home. I just recently moved to a new school district that I've been to before and it was right before i started highschool. So i had to start my freshman year at a completely new school with people i knew...but in a place that i still feel alone even though it's been about 9 weeks now. So i was blaring my i-pod and sitting in the corner curled up in my usual ball while everyone ran around and hung out with friends. i dont even remember what song it was. so, basically, yes the song is about me. it talks about how i'm alone in a school with people i knew but i hate and being scared to death of when my grandma comes home because she'll make me come upstairs and act like i'm a normal teenager (which i'm definitley NOT), and clean her whole house for her. Then the chorus is about how i'm fifteen years old and still havent had my first boyfriend. and it talks about how my daddy just moved to iowa after three years of living with him and my mama even if they are divorced (this is because they love my sisters and i enough to work it out!) and how i'm upset that it's been a really long time since i've seen him. in truth...it's about being alone and not wanting to...be alive? be in a certain place? live with certain people? i dont know. make of it what you will. all i know is that it's...me...

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