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Unrecognizable Identifiers MAG
i don't go by the
name
with which you named
me,
that sunlit day three days after my birth
teary-eyed,
nursing that perfect little baby girl
four pounds eight ounces
the littlest little baby
girl
born in the hospital that day.
she cooed what sounded to you
like the notes of a
Melody
you heard somewhere/somehow
you felt it--the spark that spoke to you
singing the harmonies to the lullaby
that your own mother had passed on
to you
and it felt
right.
//
with time she grew to fit the role
the role of a perfect little baby
girl
adorned with that
delicate and fragile smile
and most importantly that heartwarming voice
she sang for whoever came her way
and they'd always praise her
she had found
solace
through the
Melody.
//
but in reality her
melodies
were always out of tune
always a minor/major out of place
always missing the half-stop at the end
always forgetting the lines to the chorus
always a little too short for the crowd
always squinting in the back of the classroom
always shoved to the corner
her magic spell wore off,
yet she couldn't pinpoint the pain.
at times she was a little too
rambunctious
so they smirked and called her god forbidden phrases
stripped of her own femininity
resorting to food
but even that stopped coming her way
when her mother found out that she was gay
and so she stopped speaking
perhaps for a while
or two
//
and though she was overexposed at a young age
she threw herself into new
medias
new social medias
that fed into her naïve curiosity
gnawing away at her
youthful innocence
turning the clock with its blood-stained fingers
and oh she broke the rules that
ma and pa
had set for her to follow
the rules that she was supposed to follow
since birth
since the day she exited her mother
ma made the rules
she broke them.
//
with time it all made sense
why she hated the way the skirt
fitted her waist, the uncomfort
like a million pair of rotting hands
belonging to men
smudging ash onto her body
it all made sense
when she looked in the mirror
cutting pieces away like she
deserved it
she saw the girl across the mirror with her
girl clothes girl hair girl voice
girl/girl/woman/boy.
boy.
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