When I was younger
I thought I found a god,
so I went to a camp
for people who had found a god.

I did not know there were
types of gods,
and they only worshipped
one god there.

I stayed a while,
and tried to find
a place in those
god worshipping woods.

They said the lord is within,
but all I found within was myself.
I hated myself,
I blocked me from this lord thing.

Oh god, I hated myself.
There was no lord inside of me,
only these stupid organs,
only these stupid thoughts.

I tried to force some of those things out,
the organs and thoughts and such.
But, to no avail,
turns out I am human.

I tried to force my way back
into the world with a god.
But the others,
they can smell a fake.

Oh god, can they smell a fake.
The problem when they sniffed me out,
was the fact that they tried
to shove this god down my throat.

You cannot shove a god
into someone when there are
organs there, thoughts there.
There was no room for a god.

I guess people will talk
of the girl who claimed to have found a god,
but in fact, did not.
Let them talk.

Let their confusion dominate their
conversations of me.
Of course they do not understand,
that much is understandable.

But, to make things clear
for those of you who are confused,
I will sum up my explanation for my departure
in the following lines:

I am not a fake,
I express myself with candor.
There is no room for a god,
in my body, so filled with life.