Unhappy Days

Every week is back and forth,
each day you wonder
What will today be like?
Some days there’s always one thing
after another, all rapidly pushing their way
into your mind.
Because you keep talking
and talking,
without
a thought to ever stop,
he nudges you
to tell you
to shhh.
That makes you start to think
you messed up
everything.
You believe that
you did
absolutely
nothing
that contributed to anything.
You tell yourself
You’re not
normal,
you’re
not
worth it,
thinking nothing makes sense.
Don’t trust yourself,
you hate yourself even more.
Falling asleep
to the sound
of your own
crying,
you prepare yourself for
the irrationality
that will possibly again
be your life,
tomorrow.


Happy Days

Every week you are back and forth,
each day you wonder
What will today be like?
some days there’s
not much happening,
except the same ideas
moving
around
in your head,
worrying and worrying
without
end.
When he
nudges your arm and tells
your jokes, you begin
to think,
You may
be
normal,
You must
be
worth it.
Refreshed
once again,
with more trust in
yourself,
you see the world around
as a big opportunity.
As you
fall asleep
to the shadow of your laughter,
you prepare yourself for
the beautiful irrationality
that will possibly again
be your life
tomorrow.