Bruised hit hurt is where I left off 

for what he did to me is hard to describe all and all

the lies he spread left me in shambles 

was the little bit of joy worth it all in the end 

because he's happy and i am sad

maybe that's just who I am 

I give off joy 

but when will my bucket be full 

that's all i ask for 

you are happy but I am sad 

is that worth it all in the end 

because i'm finally getting color back 

but all I can hear is your spiraling voice in my head 

thinking what it is I could change to make you feel what you said the first day 

my head is quieting but quiet isn't always peace is it 

because I was struggling but for you the was no second thoughts 

no im sorry

nothing but lies

that come out of your stupid mouth