I float through life
A spectator
Instead of a participant
That’s how it feels anyway
Sometimes it’s like
I’m stuck in a room
Of mirrored glass
Soundproof
I see them
I hear them
But they can neither see me
Or hear me
It’s like I don’t even exist
I’ve never been
At the center of things
Merely at the fringes
But I’ve also never been
Completely out of things either
Not out of things
But just a spectator

I wish I could
Be noticed,
Move from the edges
To the center
I want to
Be part of things
Not just watch them
I’m tired of being a spectator
I want to act
But I’m stuck in a rut
And I need help
To start over
Help me
Turn my life around