I'm staring at my phone for that one name to pop up

I refresh and refresh until my fingers feel numb

Finally, after hours of hopelessly waiting, I get a ding on my phone

It's him

My heart fills with anxious butterflies fluttering

My finger shaking, I open it

*A picture of the ceiling*

Why do I even try?

What's the point?

I'll never be enough for him

These thoughts all flood my head at once, it's obvious I should give up

But still, my heart can't let go 

I snap him back with every part of me trying so hard to act like I don't care 

The snap is sent and I wait for a response 

The cycle starts again.