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Happy?
Could it be that I’m finally happy?
I hadn’t had a need to cry
I haven’t even felt like I need to be loopy to be happy
I’m scared
It scares me
It shouldn’t, but it does
*sigh*
It’s a good feeling, but it’s foreign
These feelings that are deep inside me want to burst out
But I don’t want to open that gate
It’s almost like I don’t want to end the drought
Could it be that I’m scared of the amount of happiness that I have inside?
Or maybe I’m trying to conserve the happiness I feel
Scared that one day it might leave or die
It’s so hard to express feelings that only appear every once in a blue moon
It feels as though my soul is finally in tune
At least for now
Bad days will come and go, that I know
But what I’ll remember most are the days where no frown could be found on my face
The days that you and I spent together where I found myself in your warm embrace
It’s been a while since I’ve felt an embrace like that
Because I was always ready for combat
All I knew was depression
And I knew it well, as if it was made for me
But the more I open up, my eyes can finally see
See that I can actually be happy
See that I no longer have to keep my pain a discretion
At what moment did this fake smile become a real one?
I didn’t realize how easily I could open my eyes and finally see the sun
A sun that has been shining down on me for a long time
I think it’s time to have some genuine fun
I think
Am I allowed ?
The thoughts inside my head tell me it’s not right
Who should I listen to,
The north or the south?
Two voices, pulling me each way
The north tells me to go out and make the best of my life
Because we’ve only got one right?
But the south tells me to go lie down
That I’ll never amount to anything in this lifetime
*pause and think*
*smile and sigh*
In the end that’s all it is
A voice
Not even real
I get to make my own decisions
And from now on I choose to envision myself as someone new
Someone happy
"The secret to being happy is accepting where you are in life and making the most out of everyday."