Feel so deprived
something done wrong
someone hurt again
somehow...
it all happened.
don't know where to start, don't know who to save.
Deep inside, I can't tell what it is
but I fear something's wrong
heavy-hearted, confused...
can't make proper decision.
Whatever choice made, I hurt the other one.
Seems like all the hard work was for nothing.
Keep forgetting my duties, falling out of my path.
Maybe it's just me. Heads spinning, don't know where to stop.
This wasn't the way it was meant to be.
Lost the true joy of happiness.
With it raining now, I thought I could find beauty in it.
I thought it would wash away my worries.
I thought I could bask in its heavenly showers.
But I only end up to find myself soaking wet,
heavy with confusion, pain, and sadness.
No one views me.
In the rain, I am yet another figure blurred in the viewer's vision.
I cannot explain this confusion. I don't know what's wrong.
But something is wrong, was wrong all along,
I just never never knew.