hey i hear ya....just keep on pluggin & don't forget there is always a silver linning & when it comes to ya it will be even bigger better & brighter. & no matter what every one of us has ONE frient that Loves us more than we can ever know ,,,untill we get to meet him one day & if we have tried our best like u have to do His will, then the best friend & the ONLY friend that really matters when every thing is said & done will come thru for U like something else. Every time i get down on myself i try not to forget how much God Loves me & He loves U so much that he made U in His very own image & likeness. And just out of His devine Love He is waiting to share MORE happiness, MORE joy, MORE love & awesum yumee thrilling unbelieveable unending total wondrous wild Highs that no human is even capable of immagining how great "eternity with God" will be for U & for those of us who only love Him enough to do what He asks of us. Once U really learn to talk to God our best friend U won't even need another one. And once you "know" Him, U can't help but "Love" Him & once U "Love" Him you can't help but want to "serve" Him,,,that is all there is gurl "KNOw, Love & Serve" God..& everything else will fall into place, & that is a promise that U can take to the bank!...Stay kool & don't forget what i told U, it is the real deal!! Luv Ya !

I can relate with you a little bit. But just know things can get better it just take time and toughing up for you to finally see a rainbow through the storm.