All good things come to an end don’t they? They crash and burn into the dirt of the earth. Well don’t they? Good things happen to good people, but sometimes those perfect little things change and turn bad and destroy you from inside and out. It affects how you see people. Then suddenly those good people struggle to trust anyone. And then those good people turn bad or shut themselves down like technology and it’s hard to get them back. So when the right person comes along they have to clean up the wrong persons mess. I wish I knew this before you smiled. God that smile you just had to look at me with those eyes and smile so bright. Didn’t you?  I guess we should start at the beginning shouldn’t we?

It was hot August day the 30th to be exact. Just another day at the rope swing we all had dirt on our feet from the Georgia clay but we dripped with water. It was a rush. That’s what we called it. Jumping out of trees into the lake and swinging from the highest point. It was the rush we all wanted. But it was different that day. I caught your eyes your green eyes so innocent and sweet. I had never seen you there before. You waited until night when we lit the bonfire to say something to me. I still remember the first thing you said to me. “What’s a beautiful girl like you doing here be yourself?”  I smiled and giggled. My response of course was “Waiting for a guy like you to ask me out.” Caught him off guard. I looked at him and smiled and said “My name is Mia. Mia Jones.” He smiled and said “Wesley. Wesley Butler.” We talked for a little bit and exchanged phone numbers. I looked at my phone and saw the time it was almost 1am I had to get home soon. You hugged me bye and that hug felt like home to me. I never wanted it to end. You started to pull away and lend in and kissed me hard. I kissed him back. That summer was all about starting over and being spontaneous and reckless. I didn’t want to be that girl that was always shy and seemed sheltered. That kiss was the start of something so perfect. Sadly the kissed ended and we both left and went home I turned right and you turned left.

The next day I get a text from Wesley “When can I see you again? ?”  I waited awhile before I responded I didn’t want to seem needy like a baby. When I finally replied I said “Depends. When do you want to?” His next reply was instinct “Today. Around say 2?” I texted back “Sounds good. You can come over and we can go swimming and watch a movie.” He pulled into my driveway right at 2 o’clock in his dark maroon colored truck. He was dressed in black shorts and a white t-shirt. I myself was wearing white shorts and a baby blue tank top I had my hair pulled back. It was way too hot to wear my hair down. I walked outside to greet him “your timing is impeccable” I said he smiled with that smile again and laughed. That day was perfect. You were perfect. My parents loved you. At the end of the night we were walking out to your truck because you had to leave. We were talking and all the sudden you stopped and you looked at me. That look you gave me I got lost in your eyes so fast. Your next words I didn’t think I would hear for a while but I did I heard them that night. “You’re too beautiful to be single. Be mine?” without hesitation or even a second thought the word “yes” flew out of my mouth so fast. I had never done anything like this been with someone I barely knew, but with him it felt so different. It felt right it felt like coming home after a long day. You pulled me in close and hugged me and I felt safe I felt right. You kissed me again. Then you looked at me and I looked at you and said “Let me know when you get home.” You laughed a little and replied “Yes ma’am.” You left and I went back inside and closed the front door and locked it and put my back to it and slide down the door and smiled. I didn’t know what I was thinking or doing all I knew was it felt right and I was regretting saying yes like I normally do. I walked upstairs and started getting ready for bed and my phone went off and I went to look at it. “Home safe baby girl.” I don’t know why I smiled like an idiot when I read that but I did. I went to sleep before I replied I knew you didn’t want me to go to sleep but I did I was so tired.

The next several months we were the couple that everyone wanted to be like. The “idol couple” that’s what they called us. I was admitted into the hospital in January. When I was finally able to text, I texted Wesley and told him he left school within seconds. He came into my room at the hospital and I looked at him and couldn’t believe he was here standing in front of me. He was wearing blue jeans and a dark purple t-shirt and white tennis shoes. The only thing he could say was “I couldn’t be in class knowing that my princess was in pain and needed me.” He laid in the bed with me until he had to go home.         When I was finally allowed to go home he was there waiting for me with stuff animals and candy. We went on trips together to the beach and the mountains. We went hiking but we also had lazy movie days. Day trips to Helen Georgia just to go tubing and all the date nights to go eat. He even came and got me at 2am just to go drive around and sit at the park on the swings and talk about anything and everything. It didn’t take long until we were saying “I love you.” It wasn’t long before he was spending the night at my house. We spent the holidays together and took so many pictures together. There were enough pictures to fill an ocean. He helped me with my school work.

So after nine months of this how did it go south so fast? How could something so perfect go wrong so fast? Well here’s the answer. I was painting the house when I got the phone call. He called me yelling at me accusing me of cheating and being a lair. I couldn’t even say anything let alone breathe. It felt like I was being stab with a knife. It go to the point where I had to start ignoring him when he blew my phone up. But that didn’t work. He showed up at my house at 3 in the morning. He also called my sister while she was in a different state in class. When I finally could talk to you it was hard. We decided to end things but still talk and be friends until we could figure things out and what happened.

I was in testing the next day and he blew my phone up to the point where the proctors almost took my test and failed me. That was the last straw. I was not about to let a guy come and mess up everything that I was working so hard for. You called me again and when I answered the first thing I could say to you was “Leave me alone do not call me again. I can’t believe you.” I hung up not giving him a chance to say anything back. He kept texting me though. He wasn’t going to give up. I never replied to him I couldn’t I had nothing to say someone was starting drama and telling him lies and he was believing them instead of me. Four days after this he called me drunk at 3 in morning. I answered. I was ready to go off on him. He didn’t give me a chance. He said “This is stupid we belong together. I’m sorry about everything. I’ve been thinking and I think we should work things out.” Before I could even think the word “No” came out of month and I hung up so fast.

You came to my house a few days later to get the box of your stuff. Little did you know that at the bottom of that box was our bucket-list. The list we made of everything we wanted to do together.  He left after I gave him that box. I knew I hurt him by giving him that. But I wanted to. I wanted him to feel the way I did. I never knew I could hate someone that was once that important to me. Now that’s the feeling I get and I can’t trust people. Wesley made me shut down like technology I will never be the same. How could something this small destroy a person? How could something so perfect change so fast? Was that your plan the whole time? Is that why you believed rumors over me?