I never thought I would feel this much pain and this much anger all at once, this is one of the worst months of my life. When to think it all started out to be happy...amazing...you and me.

It started in march, 5 of 2015 I had just got out of school it was 3:00Pm I was walking through the hall of Centaurus to get out of the  school to go home, when my phone rang… it was him I haven't talked scenes last year. So I answered and said hello, I played dumb and asked who this was but I knew who he was. He told me he was coming home from the navy and that he wanted to see me and my heart skipped a beat. I have only seen him in person once and that was where we meet the Grizzly Rose a bar I go to every Sunday. We talked every day after that until he came home on April, 5 2015 and it was a Sunday night he told me to meet him at the Grizzly Rose so my friend Jessica and I got ready. I had butterflies made of steel flying around in my stomach the whole way there, and pulling up in the parking lot was like having a heart attack Jessica had to hold my hand walking in the doors to pay and get the X’s on my hands. When I looking over he was standing there staring at me and it was like love at first sight I was in love from that moment, being with him was like being on cloud 9. When I walked up to him he gave me the biggest hug I have ever embraced and whispered in my ear that he missed me and that i was beautiful. We spent that night together like it was a damn country song I was in a dream and no matter how long I was with him those butterflies never went away I loved every minute of it. The next day we spent together and went mudding just drove around and it was like it was just us on the planet even though there was two other people in the car Jessica and Tarnna. I didn't want any of this to end by April 12th 2015 we were dating and I know that is fast but it felt so right, but my mom did not like him at all he liked to show off and tell stories that I knew weren't true but I went along with it thinking it would stop once he was accepted by my family. Soon after the family realized I didn't care what they thought they were ok with him, but the lying never stopped and I tried to make excuses for him but I knew deep down that something was wrong. He started to become distant and every time he went out without me I had a feeling he was cheating, I didn't say anything because I didn't want to be the crazy jealous girlfriend to him or anyone else. weeks go by and I know he is lying about something so I ask my sister Gina for help to see if he was really in the navy and if he was deployed to Afghanistan and Iraq. She took a week to get back and told me that he was not that he didn't even make it off of the boat and that he got medically discharged. When I tried to talk about it with him later that night he said that that was a lie and that whoever told me that is lying and how could I believe someone else and not him. After that I found out from Jessica that she went through his phone and saw that he was cheating on me. Then he told me yes that he did and that things would change and that he would get help to get better about lying. Things got better for a while and he asked me to marry him and I said yes because I had thought that he had changed and we were happy. We were in love I started to plan our wedding and then my medical health wasn’t that great for a month and he started to get distant and he wouldn't answer my calls or my texts. One of his friends had heard from him or seen him so the next time I talked to him I told him that it wasn't going to work and he just said ok I think he realized that he really lost me this time and hung up the phone. I asked when he was going to come get his things and he said I don't know, a month went by and he still didn't get it so I went and dropped it off at his dad's house. He told me that he was sorry and that he hopes that I am doing well and that I take care of myself, he proceeded to tell me that he has not heard from his son in a week. When i heard those words come out of his mouth I got worried and I started to look for him I didn’t find him, When I got a phone call from his dad he was explaining to me that his son was in the hospital and that he had overdosed…