Its easy to get upset. Its also okay to get upset. But there are very few people that will tell you that. If you have a reason to be upset about something, than be upset about it. Don’t let anyone tell you that you're not allowed to be upset or shouldn’t be mad. They’re wrong.

I’m writing this because I was highly upset, and I noticed that not many people cared. Only a couple took their mind off something to notice that I wasn’t acting the same, or asked if I was okay because of my mad tweets and rants. That day I realized that there are six types of people you go to school with. Theres the people you never ever talk to, but pass by in the hallway every once in a while and smile at each other. Theres the people you have class with, the ones you still don’t talk to but know about them because you're observant. Then there’s the people you sit next to in class. You know their names, you work on assignments with them, and eventually, become friends. Next, there's your acquaintances. These are the people you hang out with occasionally, the people you start to build relationships with, the ones who remember you for a reason. Finally, there's your friends, and your friends. Some of those acquaintances think they're your friend, and maybe you are, to them. Your friends are the ones you sit with everyday at lunch, the ones you share food with, the ones you laugh with, the ones you text occasionally to talk about other relationships or crazy things. But they’re fake. Your friends are the ones who ask you how you are each night. The ones that tell you you're worth it and have a place in the world. The ones who call you if they want to talk, barely text. They’re the ones who notice when somethings wrong just by your expression, the ones who genuinely care about you.

Your parents don’t understand you, and you stopped making an effort in trying to explain yourself to them. They try to get involved with your social life, but end up making rules and make you feel like your distrusted instead. They argue that you need to see people more instead of calling and texting, yet they have so many rules you can’t ever go out. They don’t listen, end up taking away your phone, all because they only care about your grades. You need a social life though. Everyone needs friends at one point in their lives, and they need to talk to people and build new relationships. Its healthy.

But your awkward around people. You never really learned how to communicate in a way that builds relationships fast and makes people feel like they want to be around you. You're getting better at it though. You’re, loud, funny, passionate, smart, and athletic. You get distracted easily, everythings a competition, and you never give up. You listen to what people have to say, talk to them, and guide them through their own times of doubt and lack of self respect. Your fake friends don't see any of this in you.  All they notice is your looks, humor, and ability to play sports and intelligence. Your fake friends only know if something is wrong with you after they see your angry tweets and mad snapchats. They don’t notice any of your body language, expressions, or quietness.

Your friends do. They notice little things about you, like how your lips and hands twitch when you get nervous or mad. How you have no filter when you're tired. They know that you like to eat all the pepperoni on your pizza before the pizza. How your voice cracks all the time, and when you're sick or not feeling good. They know if you're happy or excited or sad. They know when you're upset.

You ask them this: What are you supposed to do when your best isn’t good enough? Why is there always someone better, more popular, or more “fit” for the position?

They say: We live in a world of comparisons.  There’s always someone better than you at everything, always someone more respected or more popular than you.  Anyone who doesn’t see your potential and your worth is full of themselves.  Everything is biased now. You are worth it. You are worth being a part of this world, and you can do amazing things. Your ambition is priceless.  Your time is not worth any one who doesn’t see who you really are and how great you would be as a part of their team. You're so passionate and beautiful inside, even though you, yourself, doesn’t see that.  Turn your failure into success. Find yourself, enjoy yourself, and begin a new journey.
You have to learn who your real friends are, who's going to be there for you and offer support in times need, sadness, and doubt about , as well as times of celebration, excitement, and happiness, and if you do the same for them.

And from that I learned that our society is losing it. We’re all going crazy. Not very many people know what it’s like to have a real relationship now. It's all about who likes whos pictures on Instagram, sliding into someone you’ve never even mets DM’s and who has the most followers. None of us value real relationships anymore, and it's killing the social aspect of our health. People no longer care about feelings and emotions, only what their “tbh” or “rate” says. We have turned to  judging people to hide our jealousy and insecurities. Our society has lost its creativity and imagination. We have limited our emotions to just the obvious ones because we are so accustomed to following what’s popular and can no longer think for ourselves.

We need to be taught to value relationships, to value each other.
People don’t know how to love anymore. There is a fine line between love and emotions. You feel emotions because of love. Love is not an emotion. Love is a deeper connection between two people after a relationship is built and memories are made. Your real friends love you. 

What is a relationship now a days?  Is it talking to someone you’ve never met over the internet?  Is it telling them you “love” them after a month of telling each other how you get butterflies when they text back after hours of waiting, sharing a couple things in common, hanging out every once in a while, and showing the whole world that you're together after class? All while you're both being unfaithful to each other? Its all about labels now.  Very few people build real relationships any more before saying that they love each other.  It is a struggle to find someone that actually cares about your well being and focuses on only you.  Its so hard for people now to find someone they trust, someone that makes them feel worth it, and someone that will give them the love and affection every human needs.  Why have we turned to snapchatting each other provocative pictures and calling it “talking” or “a thing”.  What happened to talking in person about interests and opinions?  It shouldn't have to be hard to find anybody now that cares enough to put down their phones for an hour to listen to what you have to say.

Nobody really loves each other now because no one knows what love is.

We work hard for things only to find someone better to come along and take what we earned. The people who truly love you knows your fears, and makes sure you feel comfortable and reassured that you are still worth it after your worries come true. We try again and again, fail every time, but are still confident and ready to take on new challenges because the people that love us encourage, inspire, and strengthen us; they give us confidence. I learned that the people who love you will tell you nobody with ambition should be left in the dust because of someone “better”. They’ll say you can accomplish anything. You deserve to be confident and determined, and it's your job to prove  anyone who doesn’t give you a chance or think you're “good enough” wrong. And they’re right.