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Endurance

September 19, 2012
By stupendousman BRONZE, Peoria, Arizona
stupendousman BRONZE, Peoria, Arizona
2 articles 13 photos 182 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Hey, guys, if there&#039;s no wind, there&#039;s nothing to blow the leaves around.&quot; - from &quot;Sons of Provo&quot;<br /> &quot;Tough times never last, but tough people do&quot;<br /> &quot;the best things in life aren&#039;t things&quot;


When I was little, unhappiness was foreign to me. For every minute of my life, I would be running, jumping, skipping, laughing. Always laughing. Laughing at the littlest things, giggling at the slightest pleasure. Life was adventure. Adventure being playing “don’t-touch-the-hot-lava” and making sand gardens. Adventure being finding slimy worms under rocks and chasing after lizards in the backyard. Adventure being dressing up in princess gowns and asking my mother: “do I look fancy?” I wouldn’t waste a minute of my life.

All those years, I didn’t have a care in the world. All those years, I was happy. It’s funny how fast things can change.

When I was nine, I was diagnosed with juvenile fibromyalgia. I would feel tired often, and muscle pains occurred regularly. I didn’t run much anymore. I didn’t laugh much anymore. From then on, I got through life instead of actually living it. Besides physical pain, I was hardly aware of much change in my life. Everybody noticed how differently I was acting except me. Other kids would ask me “why don’t you smile?” or “why don’t you laugh?” I never had an answer. People thought I was boring just because I was serious. But in a way, I guess I was. My friends, who laughed often, and ran often, began to drift away. I guess I turned invisible. They would talk to each other, but not to me. Maybe they thought I wouldn’t listen. Maybe they thought I wouldn’t care. But pretty soon, my friends were gone.

It wasn’t like I tried to be miserable. To be honest, I didn’t even notice that I was. But one day, my mom said: “you used to be so happy, what happened?” And it finally occurred to me: I was unhappy.

From then on, I tried to start anew. There was one girl who was in my class a couple years ago, who was quiet, but had a couple friends. I started to talk to her and hang out with her. Soon enough, we became very good friends. This was the first bit of happiness I’d had for a long time. I started to laugh again.

For the first time, I wasn’t enduring. I was fighting.

Today, I still have fibromyalgia. Lately, I’ve had a lot more pain than usual. But I am fighting it. I will always fight it. And I will always laugh.



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on Jan. 5 2013 at 11:21 pm
stupendousman BRONZE, Peoria, Arizona
2 articles 13 photos 182 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Hey, guys, if there&#039;s no wind, there&#039;s nothing to blow the leaves around.&quot; - from &quot;Sons of Provo&quot;<br /> &quot;Tough times never last, but tough people do&quot;<br /> &quot;the best things in life aren&#039;t things&quot;

thanks! :)

on Jan. 5 2013 at 3:32 pm
ClaireBearH PLATINUM, McLean, Virginia
20 articles 6 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.<br /> Aristotle Onassis

Wow this is really touching and sad! really nice!

on Sep. 22 2012 at 12:45 pm
stupendousman BRONZE, Peoria, Arizona
2 articles 13 photos 182 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Hey, guys, if there&#039;s no wind, there&#039;s nothing to blow the leaves around.&quot; - from &quot;Sons of Provo&quot;<br /> &quot;Tough times never last, but tough people do&quot;<br /> &quot;the best things in life aren&#039;t things&quot;

thank you!

Basilisk0wl said...
on Sep. 22 2012 at 11:55 am
Basilisk0wl, Colchester, Other
0 articles 0 photos 13 comments

Favorite Quote:
Mad Hatter: &quot;am i going mad?&quot;<br /> Alice: &quot;Yes, you&#039;re mad, bonkers, off your head. But i&#039;ll tell you a secret... All the best people are.&quot;

I really like this, I can relate a bit too, well done :D

on Sep. 21 2012 at 11:51 pm
stupendousman BRONZE, Peoria, Arizona
2 articles 13 photos 182 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Hey, guys, if there&#039;s no wind, there&#039;s nothing to blow the leaves around.&quot; - from &quot;Sons of Provo&quot;<br /> &quot;Tough times never last, but tough people do&quot;<br /> &quot;the best things in life aren&#039;t things&quot;

thank you so much!

bagley777 GOLD said...
on Sep. 21 2012 at 8:01 pm
bagley777 GOLD, Tucson, Arizona
11 articles 3 photos 62 comments

Favorite Quote:
Love is a two way street. If you find yourself on a one-way road, it&#039;s time to take the next turn off.

This is a very touching story. I can relate a little bit, having some health problems of my own. (Nothing like that, though!) Very good writing too! Love it(: