My free choice is gonna be about mental health not a lot of people talk about mental health seriously no one in my life at least and especially adults in my opinion and it kinda sucks because many people especially teenagers deal with anxiety,Depression,angst many different things it all depends on the person and the person's brain and thoughts and mental health is very scary and very tough to deal with trust me i know.I have to take meds on the daily but sometimes i don't even take them i don't have a therapist to talk to anymore and i just have to talk to my friends about my mental issues even though they are going through a lot and i don't take my meds constantly because either forget or i just give up on my mental well being and i don't want anyone else to go through that that's why i wanna write a book someday so someone can relate to me when they dont have anyone else that feels the same way as they do it just helps me sleep at night if i can help at least one person with my stories even when im long gone because i always wished that i had someone to relate to but the only one was myself and my own mind keeping me hopeful when times were tough.i used to actually talk to objects when i was younger pretending like they were real people and my real friends i would just sit outside on my porch just talking to an outlet about my thoughts and even making a game with it.i was a very lonely kid when i was like probably most of my childhood most kids wouldn’t want to talk to me because of many different reasons either it was because i was a loner,kreep,weird,or just a dumb kid but i wouldn't let it get to me when i was that young but now not so much the same.Now that i'm in my senior year of highschool i just don't care about people anymore but there are sometimes when i think” i don't want to leave that little girl behind” because i know my biggest fear is being left behind in life in skills in looks in mental health hell even in growing up mentally.Many different problems i'm constantly burnt out from life and existing my mental health has been getting worse and worse i need need NEED to get back on my meds but i don't know if one day im gonna give up again if i start taking my meds again they help but what makes me sad the most about them is that they are on the highest dosage and i have two pill bottles of them i can't sleep at night most of the time at least thats why im always tired in school and thats why im always burnt out im so mentally tired i don't know what i'm gonna do after highschool and so many adults especially my mom is ALWAYS talking about the FUTURE and WHAT I'M GONNA DO WITH MY LIFE i know that i have to talk about it and make up my mind at some point but its just putting too much on my shoulders and not a lot of people like me and i feel used all the time all day everyday and i can't stand it people use me all the time even little things like get me a drink of water my brother does that everyday and so doesmy sister and i wish people liked me more i feel like im a horrible person all the time and i know that my siblings care about me but i dont feel like my parents do and i feel like someone is talking about me at this school and i feel like crying everyday but my mind keeps pushing me to do better a better and BETTER and if i cant do better than im a failure and i dont deserve anything my brain is stressing me out my brain always tells me i need to work harder and harder in school until i fall over and pass out from exhaustion thats what “trying means to me” it means everything but the thing it actually is in definition there is this song that goes like “who am i then just exploited””and i dont stick up for myself if someone tells me one more time enjoy your youth im gonna cry”or something like that but anyways that relates to me on a whole other level.