Everything started great. The races went well. The days passed quick. The time flew by. But, as the races went well, and the days passed quick, and the time flew by everything suddenly went bad. No warning. It was attacking her. With no concent it just appeared. Taking my happiness and shattering it on the floor. Nothing will be the same.
               

I'm supposed to be the one to protect her. I’m supposed to be the one to hold her when shes cries. Everything seems so blurry like i’m lost, I cant see through the tears I cry. I'm losing my sanity. I wish it was me. I can fight for her, if only we could switch. Why her? Why not me? She is mine, not yours. Let her go.
                

I'm young, she is old, attack me. I have endurance and youth, attack me. She is fragile and elder, attack me. Her life was finally on track, until you disrupted it. I hate you will all my heart. Just go away. Tears of anger fill my eyes, I want you gone but I cant take you myself. I'll have to pray for God to concur you himself.
                 

I've always believed in God, but lately my faith has been diminished. I yell at God for letting this attack you. How could he? Your purpose is to be here with me. You just can’t go home yet. I need you more. You help me stay strong, you pick me up when I'm weak,  you hold me up when I'm down. Where would I go? I'd be a lost cause, a walking blob. If you go home, please take me with you.
                  

You said we'd always be together, but you lied. You don’t let me see you because you’re sick. You want me to see you when your happy, but don’t hide from me. I'm here for you. You pretend to be strong when I’m near. I can be strong for you. Just let me be here. We need to be together. You need me and I need you.
                

 "Have faith." "Believe." everybody tells me. Or just a simple "I'm sorry" are words I hear often. Please don't say anything. Just silence. Your words don't take away the fact my nana is being attacked. Being attacked by stage 4 colon cancer. An aggressive beast that should be battling against me instead. Everything has changed. The races go bad. The days drag on. The time stands still.