Why after all this time had these feelings arose? I mean, I didn’t actually love him. I longed for a relationship like we had, yes. With the chemistry but also the fun factor of our relationship. I mean with him, we were the couple everyone wanted to be. For awhile, you never saw one without the other. He kissed me like no one had ever kissed me before.. We kissed and it was magic. And as for the fun part, we would always have these jokes about each other. He believed that I took daily naps. We even bought sloth keychains and said that they were our children. And we made an instagram account for them.

He always said that he would catch me a goose and get me a puppy. He joked that he kept a list of all the animals that I asked him for. So, yeah we had fun but we also had the long and serious conversations like every other relationship. “Where is this relationship going in the long run?” He constantly wanted to be introduced to my parents even though he knew that they didn’t want me dating, or at least my dad didn’t. And every time we walked to our tradition of DK Donuts’ coffee in the morning, he suggest that we swing by his house and introduce me to his parents. And I think part of me always suspected that we wouldn’t work out for long so I never wanted to. I just hated the idea. But suddenly, standing here talking to him, after all this time feels like destiny. I mean what are the chances that my ex is walking down the halls of our school at the exact same time that I am? And I know the chances are probably really high but think about it, what are the chances of him talking to me for the first time since we broke up in April and its November. That’s got to be some sort of sign. Or maybe deep down, he still has feelings for me, hoping that the girl he met, the girl he fell in love with is in me somewhere. Because he tested me with such confidence. He swore that I wouldn’t ditch and when I did, I had gained his respect. Buut I mean he could have easily just wanted me to feel this way. To doubt the relationship that I was in now. And maybe it worked, or maybe I realized that I wanted better than what I had with him. I mean, my boyfriend now treats me like a princess and makes me feel special. He spoils me to my heart’s content. And just gives me the best feeling ever. He shows me he loves me and he even wrote me a letter one time. And we have our moments too. He told me that he would steal me a sloth from a zoo. So yeah, my relationship now has ups and downs but in the end, it’s better than anything I have ever had and I know that I doubt it sometimes. But it’s perfect, he is perfect. And just such a gentleman, I mean we haven’t even kissed yet. Most guys would only stay for the sexual attraction part of the relationship. But knowing that he is in this relationship for more than that is just so amazing. And it puts every other one of my worries at ease. If it wasn’t for my ex, I don’t think that I would have found my way to the love of my life. So I am going to take an Ariana Grande moment and appreciate my ex for showing me what love is and what I want in a relationship. He set the standard but my boyfriend raised it.