I hate you! I thought as I glared at Maria and July. They were horrible, foolish, and untrustworthy people. Yet, I did trust them at one point. Terrible mistake.

Maria had bleach blonde hair, light pale icy blue eyes, and freckles. She also had a major tooth gap Yikes. July had short,wavy dark brown hair. She had hazel eyes and also had freckles. July was stuck under Maria’s control like her own personal minion. I kind of felt bad for her because I knew Maria was telling her to say the things she was saying. Good thing she got out of that mess shortly after the tragedy.

It was 5th grade, a simpler time. All you had to worry about was who you were going to play recess with. Life was like a fairytale… Not for long. Since it was a new school year, new people moved to our school and joined our class. Two of their names were Maria and July. We instantly hit it off and became friends. They were amazing and even stood up for me. They stood up for me if anyone called me out or made fun of me. They acted like true friends. I thought our friendship would last forever. Forever.  Maria and July were super funny and friendly. We talked to each other everyday. Yet, like any other friendship we fought. Yet everyone goes through fights where they don’t talk each other for a week and avoid them for close to a month… Right? Yet, they were super trustworthy so and I let them into my life and told them everything… That’s where I messed up. This is the start of a train wreck…

It was closer to Halloween, when the madness happened. When the first rumor happened, I heard someone say the rumor and  I was terrified… Maybe they were talking about someone else…? I hoped it wasn’t about me. Yet, it was.

“YOU’RE SUCH A LOSER!”  most of them called towards me.

It was Maria who told. Looking snobby like always July trembling in her presence. July was the innocent one. I knew what was happening. Poor July. Maria was the only one I told about that secret. It was one of the first times I opened up to someone about the subject. She told the “bullies” yet they really weren’t. They just couldn’t keep their mouth shut for a millisecond. They weren’t even hurting anyone. They didn’t know they were hurting anyone. That’s why Maria told them. She was so annoying. Everyday when I got home I would feel so confused I didn’t even feel any emotions. It was unclear what was happening to me. She broke me. This was the first time I was emotionally and mentally hurt. I was scared for my life. I never talked to my brother or my family about this. They’re already really closed-minded so I didn’t want them to feel like I was a disappointment to them. Everyday she told a new rumor half of them were fake, yet they bevilied her. They looked like her peasants and she was the queen. There was literally a line forming to people to hear about the new rumor . She also told other people’s secrets so we were all in the same boat. Hurt. Her words eventually got to me.

“It’s your fault.”

“You were the one that caused this.”

“You’re worthless.” It was always about me. Sometimes I caught myself repeating her.

“It’s my fault.”

“I was the one that caused this.”

“I’m worthless.” It felt like I couldn’t be myself anymore. It felt like I wasn’t control in my actions. I always thought life was like a fairy tale. It certainly was not.

It was now closer to Christmas. Halloween passed and we were about to go onto Winter Break. Everyone was excited. I certainly did I got to escape school and all the drama happening. When I heard what rumor Maria told I laughed to myself. Everyone did. It was such a fake lie that everyone didn’t believe her. Absolutely no one believed her. I felt super sly at that moment. She saw that no one was bullying me that day and she realized that everyone was starting to catch up to lies. Everyone started contemplating if everything she said was a lie and came to me to see if some were true. I explained to them that everything she said has been a lie this whole time. Well, some of it was true but she kept spreading more fake ones than real ones because she was running out of things to tell about me. Even July came out and told about what Maria told her. Everyone started hating July, yet I promised them that she was the innocent one she did nothing wrong. It became such a long event that by the time we finished clearing everything up recess was over. I had won this battle.

Winter break went fast and we were back in school. I saw Maria sitting there just looking down. She had lost her crown and was now a normal person. Maria attempted to spread more rumors yet, still no one believed a word she had said. Everyone just slowly started avoiding her. Some people still believed her, yet it was a very few amount of what she had. There was a huge line when she started. Now there was close to 5 or 6 people listening to her. When I got teased by them everyone stood up for me. When they did the people that were teasing me joined our side. Then it hit me. Maria was just doing this all for attention. She feels like me now and how I felt when she was teasing me.

Yet, she caused this.

It’s her fault.

I wasn’t going to deal with her anymore. So I told everyone to stop bothering her and leave her alone. Slowly, everyone just stopped talking to her except for a few people.

It was finally summer thank god. I don’t have to see people I don’t want to talk to. Then suddenly, I got a notification so I check my IPod I had at the time and saw the notification was from Instagram. When I opened it I saw a message from Maria. It was close to a 10 paragraph message begging me to be my friend again; and I did what every normal person did. I blocked her and haven’t talked to her since. Last time I’ve heard from her was her mom was enrolling her into a Christian school. So at least she’s praising god after all of this. Hopefully she’s doing better and not being such a toxic person. Yet I really doubt it. Not a lot of people change for the best. Then summer ended and I went into 6th grade I finally realized life isn’t even close to fairytale. Nothing like it is in the movies.    

Maybe you’re going through the things I did in this story that I just told, and it was a big step to tell everyone how I felt here. Maybe you're going through the same things and don’t know how to open up to some people and tell them how you feel. Hopefully this story helped you and maybe you could tell people people how you really feel.