I had another nightmare. I was standing in an unhappy crowd. I was all alone among bitter nameless people. I tried talking to a few but it always backfired. every time one opened its mouth, ugly terrible creatures poured out. destructive and hateful. and every time slowly yet surely those creatures would find there way to me. biting through the soles of my feet and borrowing deep inside. person after person it was always the same coi smiles, the same cold eyes. their eyes and mouths never matched. they grinned as they let their monsters out, but for some reason i kept trying.. Certain, I could somehow someway make it better
All the while im getting weaker and weaker. I can hear their voice in my head telling me, im not good enough i will never be good enough.
it seemed like others could see them too. their cruel smiles and hushed assumptions were proof of that. slowly they started to use me. pouring out all their own creatures too feel stronger. so that their monsters would live in me instead.
eventualy their was no one left no one to take my monsters for me, no one to talk to me or cry with me they all had me but i had noone but the monster. frail and broken i made my way home. i lay on my bed waiting for dreams to come. only now do i realize they never had
the monsters are still here eating away at me