Three times this has happened to me. I fall so hard for a guy that I hardly even know. Every time I make a promise to myself that I will stay committed to this one guy. And every time that guy breaks my heart. After that you would expect me to be a mess, right? Well, I am, in my own way though. I start questioning myself and my relationships with others. Sometimes I would think I liked a guy only to give up on him a week later. The cycle was endless. It wasn’t the guys, it was me. Yeah, yeah, i know, the whole “it’s not you, it’s me” thing. But it was true. I would start to think that I wasn’t good enough and that all I was is a huge disappointment.

I guess I just want a guy that will show me that he is different..